Greetings my name is Timothy Halloran I am a speaker of sorts and today is April 2nd 2019... April Fool's! It's April 1st 2019. Yes, that's probably the maximum sense of humor we'll get out of me today. Heavens knows there is a lot going on our planet at this time in these videos we're talking about the natures of the times so I'm not sure if there's any 10 year-olds watching these videos but maybe save some of the pranks for next year I've got a couple notes to get through so let's cut straight to the chase we're gonna talk about a new moon in Aries but first we'll save that to the tail end we've got a lot of layers to get through beginning with Mercury retrograde mercury station direct just several days ago March 28th at the 16th degree of Pisces conjoined Neptune and very very slowly mercury is moving forward and we'll pass by Neptune tomorrow Tuesday April 2nd now this is not your average mercury station typically when mercury stations direct following his retrograde period there can be a period of redirection turnarounds clarity realization and yet with mercury stationing direct on top of the most nebulous and ethereal planet the Lord of the Seas Neptune the only sense of clarity we may be getting from this particular mercury station is the uncertainty that there is a level of uncertainty in life that there is a need to surrender to go with the flow to be open to the dream being fulfilled at its own natural rate at its own natural pace just like the springtime flowers unfolding in the sunshine if we are to try to force any one of those flowers open prematurely they are certain to simply in our hands it is such an important key need at this time to not overly force or conform to any outer expectations that are not honoring our own natural way and pace of unfolding okay this can be tricky this uncertainty that we're entering as a collective where the world's going where we as individuals are blossoming into this flower it's as if we have yet to discover what that fullness what that color what that scent will be about so again there can almost be a level of apprehension that is certainly coming up these weeks but some of the alchemical transmutation can be shifting that into excitement through a willingness to embrace the uncertain to go with the flow and allow these flowers to unfold and discover what that beauty is at its own natural unfolding rate now with this mercury stationing on Neptune there's this deeper theme therefore of trust of faith of surrender when mercury stationed I just ran this quick social media experiment posting the question on Facebook what is faith and it was amazing the massive diversity of response as to what faith means to any given person this is a wonderful question to be exploring at this time what does faith mean to you what does surrender mean what does it mean to trust what does it mean to let go what is that that we are connecting with what is that that we are aligning with there is an opportunity to find our Center in that that which is beyond the surface that which is beyond time beyond conceptualization is where there is this opportunity to grow and unfold by developing a deeper level of connection with our inherent soul and our inherent creative expression now there is an incredible openness with this mercury stationing on Neptune it's like every little dimension is opening every little dimension is processing and there is again this wisdom that we're finding in letting go to open to allow what needs to be release to be let go and there can be strange feelings fears dreams images past life experiences that we may not even know our past life experiences bleeding through our dreams weeding through our interactions catalyzing these strange thoughts these strange feelings these strange experiences it's somewhat all to be taken with a grain of salt right now the amount of information overload can be overwhelming and the simplification this reducing process can really bring us in a direction of finding what work can we do what relationships can we be involved with how can we lay this foundation for our creative process that gives us a sense of purpose and meaning by understanding all of these diverse dimensions we're connected to but the key right now is to simply allow for this processing allow for this redirection allow for us to feel and experience whatever we're feeling even if it is not the most fun-loving playful April Fool's type of experience because that processing although uncomfortable can allow for the surfacing of some extremely important realizations coming from our cell from coming from our past our relationships and the world that were involved with as a whole what is the world that we've been involved in what is nature okay we'll talk about this mercury stationing on Neptune can also be bringing us back to nature by deep conditioning the world as a social construct and coming again into the core the raw essence of who we are by allowing for this releasing so you know again it's like when we get food poisoning and we vomit those toxins into the toilet it's not always fun but that releasing can also be a part of a clearing and an opening of space and even if we're not totally certain exactly where things are going that's surrendering that unfolding that opening can't allow for that light at the end of the tunnel for the hidden blessings in the trail of breadcrumbs forward to be exposed in that effortless non forceful and yet embracing our total experience type of way the transiting moon south node in Capricorn can joins Pluto the Lord of the underworld in just a few days Thursday April 4th in many many respects this is a tapping down at the bottom of the barrel it is tapping and tuning in to our own unconscious dynamics but also the world's unconscious how we've been connected to the unconscious motivations of the world these unconscious dynamics in society are really being yanked up to the surface at this time it's what dynamics we and the world have been unconscious of that has had the effect of getting us to where we are now where are these fears coming from where are these claustrophobic situations coming from where are these expectations these obligations these achievement needs are coming from can largely come from unconscious dynamics what has been swept beneath the surface for years for decades for lifetimes becomes exposed when the moon South node is joined with Pluto I don't think any astrologer sees Saturn Pluto moons south node conjunction and really reads you know cheery light fluffy optimistic ok we know where we are right now this is shadow work and it is work it is going into the unknown it is going into our fears and we need to embrace shadow work we must embrace this descent into our unconsciousness because the way to make our fears and our insecurities a million times worse is to run from them or to conform to the outer oppression or expectations that says you know what those fears and those worries that are coming from your unconscious what well they're not and they're not there that's your problem you know that's what you gotta fix that's what you got to take care of and then we conform we freeze we go into a paralysis and we kind of turn into this closed off yet very very painful wound up tightness we can all be experiencing this tightness and our lower chakras in our gut in the underworld it is where this immense tension is happening between our own individual desires and self-expression versus all of this unconscious conditioning how it has affected us and how it may have imprisoned us and some of these fears some of these dynamics that seem so claustrophobic that seems so intense well they aren't really they aren't in reality it's the old world that has constructed the day and age the how to in the way that we may not be able to live up to that creates those fears those apprehensions how am I going to keep up with this how am I going to be able to accomplish this I have too much going on in me right now this isn't Who I am this doesn't respect my nature and so I'm afraid I'm afraid of getting run over I'm afraid of failure I'm afraid of disappointing others and in fact these dynamics may come from a conditioned sense of this is who I should be and this is what I should do that's actually not who we are and it may not be what we should be doing but culture Society authorities and bosses do not give us permission to honor our nature in this day and age we're not given permission to honor our own unique pace flow and creative expression we can be afraid honor those things and yet by facing those fears by going and confronting those dynamics anyways this can result in a change of perspective that can allow for a total orientation of reorientation to our world that is more realistic but also healthier allowing us to be more connected to nature and more connected to our bodies more centered in ourself and more simplified in terms of the things that we're focusing on in doing so that way we really can be in tune and more distant from this action and this machine that is the man-made conditioned culture that is the television and the news that conditions us to believe that there's only a one-size-fits-all approach that causes us to cripple ourself when we realize I can no longer conform to that we have to break free when we're looking at this South node Pluto soon to be followed by Saturn puto conjunction we're looking at barebone systems of action and consequence okay where we have created actions in the past that may have come from our own unconscious conditioning or those blinders and now they have consequences or that unconscious runoff coming from generations after generations of information and this is the how - this is what we need to do and where we have all previously ignored or swept these dynamics under the rug that's where there's this tremendous friction that we're experiencing or this heaviness or this intensity or even not feeling really well like I've been feeling almost nauseous there's so much complexity and depth and oh my gosh it can just be so overwhelming you know and that overwhelmingness that tension is coming from these unconscious unresolved dynamics going on in between us like the need to conform to make other people happy and yet it's not my own nature and this isn't who I really am but it's very beneath the surface and it's uncomfortable because there's this well it's gooey it's complicated and so there's not really this quick fit quick win or you know the stereotypical why people love to go call psychics and therapists enjoying the New Age movement cuz they want that quick fin fix they want that quick win oh I'll do this meditation process and I'll immediately feel better oh I'll put a smile on my face and look in the mirror and say that I love you every day and I'm just going to be radiant angel and all of this bypasses anything that's going on in the unconscious field that requires shadow work going into the dark going into the depth going into the things that we are afraid and run away from is the real spiritual work of becoming empowered becoming centered so we no longer get thrown and steered like a marionette pushed and pulled by invisible strings that are those unconscious fears and unresolved dynamics those are the strings that this tension and discomfort is making us aware of to inevitably make us should we choose I shouldn't say inevitably should we choose to acknowledge these dynamics and do the necessary shadow work we can become enormous ly empowered we can become vehicles in the world that honor our truth honor our nature and find the way to put it into practical work but we have to honor this massive transformation that can feel like getting pummeled or pushed or pulled like the mortar and pestle you know running over the herbs and bursting the herbs open so that way that essence that fragrance and that medicine can be released those unresolved dynamics in our own belly is like a chemical concoction that is reacting that is stewing that is clashing and so those old structures can be exposed and then dissolved the fundamental work that no longer works or is oppressive is falling away and how we used to force through these things like I just should ignore this or I should just push through this we can no longer do this we can no longer accept the old beaten path the old overemphasized and distorted Capricorn on work physical survival earning money and getting the approval of our successors and our authorities that age-old capitalistic technique that we are forced to climb from one ladder of one run one rung of the ladder to the next rung to the next rung and no matter how high we get we are encouraged that there's another rung higher and we should be there and we haven't really found success yet we haven't really accomplished ourselves yet because well there's another person who's done more and there's another soul more enlightened and there's another person who's getting the recognition at work and we beat ourself down that's the old beaten path and that's what we're deconditioning out of that's where the change of perspective and orientation to life is driving those areas are driving that change of perspective to take place lo and behold Wednesday April 10th Jupiter the planet of perspective philosophy truth and perspective is slowing down and stationing retrograde at 24 degrees 21 solar arc minutes of Sagittarius now this is this time of deconditioning what is that old truth that old philosophy that old orientation is that may in fact not be totally healthy that orientation that causes us to lose perspective of our real truths as well as a valid connection to our own spiritual center here now we are seeing how this perspective needs to change and this is very much a period where there is necessary self-reflection going inside to discover one's own a unique truth that may be different than the mainstream or the status quo or the beaten path that we see out there in the world again this self reflecting can go very very deep there may be even a tuning in to those ancient strings of lifetime's going very far back or again the generational car more a trauma that we're resolving and really looking at these things and how has this affected my orientation or my perspective and how being made aware of these strings of lifetimes of generations of culture and society is making me self aware of my own truth my own path of healing and resolving these issues this is very much about exploration with this Jupiter station in Sagittarius again the discovery of the healthier perspective is such an important focus this month with so much tension happening between our long term dreams and goals and our practical functioning in the world both are lofty expectations and heavy doubts that paralyzed us must be looked at in order to reframe where those lofty expectations may be leading us clear into delusion land or straight off a cliff or were those heavy doubts maybe keeping us frozen in paralysis stuck to the beaten path and there is a theme of finding this confidence to initiate our own individual path through this month beginning with this new moon on April 4th but there are challenges there are complications to overcome we are working with groups we are working in relationships and there is again this trial and error so to find the creative solutions that work for all of the above that gives us a sense of momentum moving out of those old heavy doubts and yet giving us a practical focus one baby step after the next that we can practically speak into integrate in our life and world to bring in that sense of momentum that sense of momentum direction and energy is going to be pulling more and more in through this month of April with Mars having just moved into the sign of Gemini March 31st and following this new Moon in Aries April 4th that slowing down and tuning in and allowing ourself to emotionally release to process to feel to just go into the bath and do nothing to just lay in bed and make it a nest make it a womb and allow ourself to find that Center allow all these deep feelings layer after layer to come off is a little bit easier said than done at this time being challenged by that saturn pluto on the south node and yet it remains to be the medicine this is where the true work is happening if you need a time clock to clock in and out of that bath because you feel guilty about slowing down or it's too lazy see it as doing important spiritual work this is where the real deep down work is happening is through this emotional purging emotional processing that is allowing for the transformation to take place because we're changing who we are by allowing these necessary emotions to and form us what's coming from our Center what's coming from our heart what's coming from the Divine Feminine the Divine Feminine has been oppressed suppressed and prejudiced against for thousands and thousands of years all the world society knows how to do is suppress and oppress the Divine Feminine our own emotions our own emotional needs our own needs for emotional support our own needs to express a diversity of feelings and emotions know you being pissed off and shaking your fist at God is not a sign of spiritual devolution no being angry or sad or depressed is not a sign of being disconnected you're more than likely sensitize sensitive and tuned in to be having these experiences and those emotions are in fact informing you why you're pissed off at the world is for probably good reason why you're depressed and sad is for probably good reason but then rather for criticizing ourselves or flagellating ourselves for having these feelings which allow which forces them to be suppressed and makes the insecurities the paralysis the sickness the illness the disease worse we have to do the necessary deep conditioning we have to redefine what strength means what success means what it means to be a hero you're more of a hero now to acknowledge your fearful depressed feelings to be vulnerable and unable to keep up with the rat race then you are leading the rat race and showing everybody what a strong capable running over emotions and running over the needs of a diverse group is that's not heroic at this time slow down relax it may be totally counterintuitive and again it's easier said than done because Saturn and Pluto says no time no money no space no capability what are those pressure 'full situations going to bring up our deep feelings of despair of loss of imprisonment those are the feelings that are going to be informing us of who we truly are and those are the feelings are going to allow us to honor and acknowledge who we truly are to transform the rat race to transform the game into something that's actually healthier as we do this for ourselves we will be sharing this medicine with the world without even having to try to help others it's about what we need to feel safe so that way we can lead and give valuable back work back to the world rather than being run into the ground we're the best that we can give back is low quality not authentically who we are and leading into this collective misdirection where thousands and thousands of souls are doing the work that they think they should be and then no one's actually honoring the treasure and the gifts that they naturally embody that they would discover should they have the time the space to slow down and tune in ok easier said than done don't beat yourself up that it's not happening at the snap of a finger give yourself that permission anyways to sleep in if you're not feeling sick to call off even if the boss laughs at your face it's gonna pay off in the long term this is the deep soul level spiritual work that will allow for us to transform all these relationships all these interactions all these foundations to be fundamentally better than what we've ever known was possible by being willing to go against the grain New Moon in Aries 15 degrees Square to Saturn Square to Pluto changing our individual orientation to the world finding the confidence to go to the beat of our own drum yes there is the test of bringing something new and different forward and into the world and it takes energy and confidence which we are earning by facing the fears that we are earning by being willing to confront the complicated issues and as we face those fears as we face those complicated issues as we champion by redefining what strength means strength is no longer hiding from our emotions it's being vulnerable with our emotions in a centered mature way I have been unhappy I have been struggling I been in pain I have been unable to breathe it's not a lack of my strength it is an honoring of Who I am that is what true strength is because it takes courage to be an individual it takes courage to honor our own needs and that's how we form healthy relationships that's how we form more loving caring bonds as we face those fears as we face those old issues and are willing to confront them anyways it becomes easier energy is coming back to us confidence is coming back to us momentum coming back to us full bore through this month of April my goodness particularly when mercury leaves Pisces into April I'm sorry into Aries on April 17th moving forward but my goodness Mars is in Gemini now through May 15th there's so much to do so many different areas our energy as Dyson is dispersed but we're learning how to focus on what we're truly interested in what brings more energy by honoring our uniqueness and discovering that pace that rate that schedule that system that allows for us to share that allows for us to distribute our wisdom and focus on what's filling up our own glass rather than self-sacrifice or getting thrown under the bus this is the time to focus on our truth our wisdom our orientation to find a center to find more of a connection to nature to find more of our feet on the ground we are seeing this Venus Neptune conjunction happening in a semi square to Uranus who just recently entered Taurus how can we find this deeper union and connection together as souls is through the simplification to get more distance and more space from this crazy fast-paced running itself into the ground world to get that sense of nature in space and filling up our glass and when we remember what nature is when we remember who we truly are we can breathe and all of those crazy superstitions and conspiracy theories and fears get let go so find what you need to breathe to slow down and be the warrior who's protecting your inner child that's the Saturn Pluto on the south node redefining strength reading defining Authority redefining what it means to be a hero to honor that North node in cancer Divine Feminine our inner child our inner emotional needs because in that cancer medicine in our emotional needs we will be discovering those medicines that we can share and distribute that will be those medicines that are most valuable most appreciated and most desired by other souls because that medicine has been so missing and because so few souls have the confidence or the sense of permission to give that themselves that medicine so give that medicine to yourself as the number one priority particularly this month of April and maybe later on in July when we have our next Eclipse season thank you to my teachers to my leaders to my healers tuning in to these videos you know who you are you know you're giving this medicine to yourself watch it work prove to yourself how much more centered how much more happy how much more blissful you are by honoring your own Souls by honoring your own inner child's needs so I am so much wishing you and your beloved's all the best and please do remember to take care